Miloš and I are in the middle of our longest stretch apart this year: three weeks. I know that compared to the three month stretches we used to be forced to endure, three weeks is practically nothing. But I can tell you that having to live through it is certainly not nothing. We miss each other, dammit!
A little while back, I wrote a post about long distance relationships, and I touched on the subject of missing the other person. I can honestly say that being in a constant state of missing each other is definitely the hardest long distance side effect EVER. It’s this perpetual feeling of yearning and longing for the other person. Imagine being terribly thirsty, but you have to wait a few weeks for the water to get there. That other person is the only water that exists in the world. It’s a real, physical sensation. You feel it in your chest, in your head, in your whole body. Anything great that might happen would only be better if you were together. Any kind of bad day would be buffered and alleviated if you only weren’t apart.
Miloš will be here a week from Monday, but in the meantime, I feel like I’m dyin’ here! This past Tuesday, I had a horrible day. Just awful. When I came home in the evening, all I could wish for was to have my man here to hug me, hold me, and tell me it’s okay. But instead I had to lay on my bed alone and try to relax and get the stress chemicals out of my system. That was followed by talking to Milos via Viber – but his wifi signal was so weak, that half the time we couldn’t understand each other anyway. A signal that constantly goes in and out makes it rather difficult to discuss the details of your crappy day. But we had to make do. Just hearing each other’s voices does help make a bad day better.
Fortunately, the cruise season will be wrapping up at the very end of next month, and after a few days of closing up ship, Miloš will be done for the year. Except for a couple weeks starting on Christmas Eve, we’ll get several months of 24/7 togetherness again. (We’ll both be in our own home countries for Christmas itself, followed by a couple weeks of me closing up the caroling season before returning to Europe.) Some couples can’t handle that constant 24/7 together time, but for us, it’s heaven. We love it and can’t wait for it! We get along so well and never get sick of each other. We’re also working on a few ideas for even LESS time apart next year during the cruise/touring season, but that’s still in the works – we’ll see what happens. Each potential scenario is at least better than this past year, which has been better than the years before it.
All the while, we’re working towards a day when we’re never apart again.